Scary Phone Call

So, due to recent health issues, I have been seeing the doctor much more than any one person would like to.
About 4 months ago I had a procedure and crossed my fingers that I made the right health choice. A few weeks ago I went in for a follow up exam. The doctor told me to call in two weeks for the results - no news is good news, and often times when the tests are negative, they do not call patients - ok fine.
So here I am, plugging away at work, chatting it up with a client and getting some invoices ready when my mom calls. From the way she said Stef - I knew something was wrong. Her voice was shakey and I new somethinig was up. She told me the doctors office called and they wanted me to call them. They wouldn't tell her why. Immediatly my blood ran cold - ice filled my veins. Shaking I took down the number and said I would call. Now, I don't have my own office and I didn't want to make this type of phone call in the open, so I went into my bosses office, shut the door and shakily dialed the numbers. The whole time my mind was rushing with horrible thoughts. Was I going to need more surgery? Did I make the wrong choice? Would my future forever be altered?
I quickly dialed and spoke to the nurse. "Oh, Stephanie, Hi - just wanted to let you know that we got your test results back - all tests came back negative" WHAT? I was immediatly relieved and almost started to cry. This was crazy. Honestly it felt like my life was suspended and then suddenly started again. "No sweetie, your fine - we'll see you in 3 months for another follow-up".
I have never been so thankful or relieved in my entire life. I suddenly realized that even though my life isnt' perfect - it is a gift and it's about time I take this gift and make the most of it. So - I've fallen off the horse when it comes to working out and eating healthy - so now I'm back on it. I deserve to feel good about myself and I always feel better when I take care of myself. I've also decided that I will no longer hold back - I'm not going to make people guess at what I want from them, from others, or from life. That's no way to live, and you only end up disappointed - besides no one can read your mind. I'm going to take care of myself, I'm only good to this world when I'm healthy, happy and thankful for what I have. I will contribute to those around me - I don't have to change the world, but if I can make one person smile every day or make one person laugh, or lend an ear, well then I've made a small change.
I am ever greatful for my health and my life - I'm in charge now!